Over the last few months I've been getting a bit frustrated. I've had the opportunity to start or get involved in various interesting projects but, before long, quite a few of them have stalled. Maybe they'll pick up again, or maybe they'll not.
I'm feeling like I'd like something, a worthwhile project, I can pick up and run with (to use the rugby analogy), something I can really get my teeth into. I'd sort of got used to starting a project and having to wait for others to catch up or for the time to be right, before pressing ahead, but a bit of me would really like to just get on and be spontaneous . . . for a longer spell of time.
Forcing myself to reflect on this (after another 'hold on Keith' message) it suddenly dawned on me: which bit of me is feeling this? Ah! Only that wanting to be in control bit!
Seeking spontaneity has just been an excuse. Wanting to get one's teeth into something or pick up and run with it is just another way of saying 'having a goal', an idea . . . and to be attached to it.
Not really part of my underlying lesson these days: to detach, to be in the moment. Oh!
There can only be one focus of inner knowing: the present moment.